Action brings dreams to life...
Flushing a conversation that I had out...
I don't get along with this person, yet I'd never not try to find the hidden "gems" that I may be able to take with me, and learn from. It's usually the most difficult people that produce the most dramatic learning opportunities in your life. Years ago I was told, "Listen to the message, despite the messenger." I've adopted that view ever since.
One of the things that stuck out in the conversation was his noting that I use the word "I", "me" and "my" more than anyone he knows.
I use the word 'know' lightly as well, just because he doesn't truly know me, himself. The short time frame, and level of past personality conflict, haven't allocated enough space and time for it. Fair enough, I would also venture to say I don't know who he truly is either.
But this note I found interesting...Interesting because it's true. This is something I know about myself. More specifically, it is something I know about myself, where I am in my life presently. I don't know if being an Aries (the sign ruled in the House of Self), or being in the midst of a numerological 1 Personal Year (the year of building self) magnifys this fact, or what, but I don't deny it's there.
It's there for a reason.
It's there because I am creating the foundation to creative projects, businesses, and relationships that fuel my soul, and will eventually fuel a livelihood. This is probably the most introspective year of my life, right now, today, as I write these words.
Writing my first book. Being a new businesses owner with Evierobbie Media. Debuting and upkeeping the Nomad•ness website and travel videos (which is doing great. Thank you all for reading and re-reading. watching and re-watcing). A new relationship. Coming into my own woman. Seeing many fruits flourish from past labor, that didn't really feel like labor because it is what I love to do. It's an extremely personal year.
Those closest to me know that I sometimes describe myself as an extrovert with very introverted tendencies, particularly writing, which has me alone and in front of my computer for hours on end, doing something I absolutely love. Those closest to me also know that through the majority of my life, I was a giver, to the point that I was panic attack ridden, with nothing left for Evita. I was physically, emotionally, and psychlogically drained for years on end. It took a long time to learn that doing something for myself is ok, with or without explanation.
It's not about me going all out only for myself. I could see where it is misunderstood as such by those who don't truly know me. It's about getting some serious moves made towards my dreams. I'll never apologize for that, as long as I'm not hurting anyone in the process.
This is a huge year in my life. I don't take any part of it for granted. I also understand that in order to accomplish certain goals, there are a number of things that need my attention. It's a beauitful thing. It's positive progress.
So when I speak on what I'm doing, it's merely to bring you into my world, voluntarily. Show you a different perspective, and a different way of doing things, not necessarily a 'better' or 'worse' way. Again, voluntarily.
It's the same reason why I update you all on Nomad•ness gals and guys that I see who embody the spirit of someone pursuing their dreams, balls to the wall. I can only support that.
(For you Malcolm Gladwell heads...why does this make me think of the 10,000 hours to genius chapter in Outliers??...)